I CAN'T. I CAN.

I just can't. I can't. I eat. I throw up. I don't like food. My body needs it. But it just won't be eaten. My stomach refuses it.
God help me with this. I am so tired. The moment I stop eating I lose weight. All the effort becomes useless.

I need help.
I'll try this for now. "I CAN".

This is not your body

"This is not your body"

"Look. This is your body. Your hands you have beautiful hands. This is part of your body. But that is not"

Said the old chinese healer in a very chinese accent as she inspected my body like a wise ancient doctor.

She said the exact words I knew to be true deep down in my core all my life.

This is not my body. I knew something was wrong.

"This is swelling. You swelling from pain. So much pain and tension you carry all here. I release for you"

Flush.

Release.

Goodbye alien body.